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  She set her keys up on the kitchen bar, then turned to face him. He said nothing as he tried to control his thoughts. He was here, he would get to have her, and dammit, it was pretty much what he had been dreaming of for the past month.

  “Did you want something to drink?” she asked.

  He shook his head, still saying nothing. He was afraid to. He knew she wanted this, wanted to feel again, but there was something nasty beneath his surface that was egging him to conquer. That was not what she needed now.

  “I…” She sighed. “I don’t know what to say.”

  He smiled and pushed away from the door. As he approached her, he noticed little things. Her breathing was fast. The pulse in her neck hammered and her eyes were dilated. He took her hand and drew her behind him as he continued on to the bedroom.

  He tugged her through the doorway, then led her to the bed.

  “Take a seat.”

  “I’m not completely sure.” She opened her mouth to continue, but he had had enough. His nerves were riding a thin line. He leaned down and kissed her. Simple at first, but next, as usual, the heat between them exploded. He leaned against her and she fell back onto the mattress. He enjoyed the feeling of lying on top of her. His cock pulsed and his need roared through him. But he needed to make this good, needed to do this for her. He pulled away and kissed his way down her neck. Her skin was naturally sweet and warm from the sun. God, he would never get enough of her, of touching her…tasting her.

  He licked at the pulse in her neck and felt it flutter and then speed up. He unbuttoned her top, kissing the skin he bared as he spread the fabric apart. The pink bra cupped her breasts and with each breath, flesh rose above the confines. The soft color contrasted with her cocoa-colored skin. It had a front closure, thank the good Lord, so he pressed it. Her excited gasp sank into his skin. He was trying to keep it together, trying to take it slow. But he didn’t know how the hell he would keep it together. His cock was hard, ready, willing. Hell, he’d been ready since the moment he met her.

  “Kai.”

  Her soft voice, filled with southern need, caught his attention. He looked up at her as he bent his head to her breast. Those gorgeous eyes of hers were half-closed, a flush brightened her cheeks and he could feel the arousal slipping past her barriers. Without breaking eye contact, he pressed the flat of his tongue against the tip of her nipple and gave her one, long lick. She shuddered so slightly he would have missed it had he not been so close to her. He continued kissing down her body, enjoying the sweet, salty taste of her flesh. As he inched down her pants, he sighed when he saw the pink scrap of lace. Women with a love of naughty panties had always been his personal favorite. It showed him that on some level she had dealt with the sexual threats her boss had made. There was something else there. Something in the way she dealt with him that told Kai she hadn’t had a man since. He couldn’t fight the totally primitive need to be the first for her again.

  He eased the panties down her long legs. She wasn’t a skinny woman, and he liked that. Her legs were muscular, but not too hard. There was a feminine curve to her thighs, he thought as he licked her flesh.

  She shifted her legs closer together, but he didn’t want that. He needed to see her as much as he needed to taste her.

  He gently pulled them apart and sighed. Her pink lips were wet, glistening with need. He smelled the pungent fragrance of her arousal. Slowly, he dipped his head, then pressed his mouth on her pussy. She seemed to freeze for a second. He slipped his tongue along her slit, then she shivered and relaxed against him.

  The flavor of her exploded over his tongue, over his taste buds. Salty sweet, and just as sassy as her personality. He took her clit between his teeth and she moaned. It sounded strangled as if she were holding back. And that gave him a mission. He wanted her so lost in the moment that she was screaming his name. He slipped a finger into her pussy and groaned as her muscles clamped down tight on his digit. She shifted closer, slipping her hands through his hair, molding her fingers to the back of his head. He continued to tease her clit, alternatively sucking then blowing on the small bundle of nerves. He could feel her orgasm approaching as he slipped another finger into her core.

  “Come for me, Jocelyn.”

  Frustration shimmered in the air around her as she fought for release. He could physically feel it as she tried to come.

  He moved his fingers in and out of her, then took her clit between his teeth again. In that next moment, she spasmed, and a long, throaty moan vibrated out of her throat as her inner muscles clamped down hard. He lifted his head and watched. She threw her head back, exposing the column of her neck. At the same time, she arched her torso, causing her breasts to thrust up in the air.

  Long moments later, she relaxed against the bed. He slipped from the bed, tore off his shirt and then started to unbutton his pants. It was then that he noticed that his hands were shaking. He drew in a deep breath, closing his eyes and trying to remind himself to go slow. It was hard to do because every instinct he had told him to take her fast and hard. He could do that later. Now he needed to make sure he didn’t spook her.

  When he opened his eyes, he noticed that she was watching him with a small smile curving her lips. Her gaze traveled down his body, and he shouldn’t have blushed. He had spent his life in Hawaii, on the beach, half-naked. But as her big green eyes took in his body, heat blazed a path along with her gaze. He didn’t know if he had ever seen a woman look at him quite this way. As if he were a treat for her to enjoy.

  Her gaze finally lifted to his face and she laughed. “Are you blushing?”

  He cleared his throat and this should have been a turn off. But hearing her joy, seeing the sparkle in her eyes, made him smile.

  “It’s just…well, the way you’re looking at me.”

  She scooted to the end of the bed and placed her feet on the wooden floor in front of him. She spread her hands over his chest, smoothing over his nipples.

  “I never dated a guy who had a nipple ring before.” She smiled up at him. That and the teasing in her voice had his cock twitching. “I sort of like it. I also heard you have more interesting piercings.”

  He rolled his eyes. “A couple of my friends started that rumor years ago. I can’t believe anyone still talks about it.”

  She slipped her hand over his shorts, her fingers caressing his shaft through the fabric. Damn, he should have worn underwear today.

  He closed his eyes again and bent his head back. He was close, closer than he expected to be after a little oral sex with her. But there was something in her, something he wanted to touch…that had him very close to the edge.

  Without saying a word, she slipped the fabric of his pants down. He opened his eyes as his cock sprang free into her hands. He wanted to tell her no, that he didn’t know if he could control himself. When he saw her face, filled with excitement and lust, he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He felt her breath tickle the head of his cock, the moment he felt her tongue slide over the very tip. Over and over she licked him as she moved a hand up and down, pumping him. With every stroke she pushed him closer to the edge, but he couldn’t seem to form the words to tell her to stop. It felt so damn good.

  She licked down one side of his cock, then up the other as she slipped her hands down to his sac to caress him. He allowed it only for a few moments before he pulled her away tumbling both of them back on her bed. He stretched out on top of her, wanting nothing more than to dive into her. But he cursed when he realized he needed a condom. He jumped off the bed, slipped off his shorts the rest of the way, grabbed condoms out of his wallet and tossed it behind him.

  He tore one condom package free and dropped the rest on the bedside table. Ripping the foil, he had the condom on in seconds and was back in bed with her. She giggled, something that sounded so young and carefree, it squeezed his heart. He’d heard her laugh since he met her, but nothing that sounded this free, this thoughtless, this wonderful.

  He slipped up her body, position
ed his cock at her entrance and entered her in one hard, swift thrust. She drew in a breath and he silently cursed himself. She wasn’t a virgin, of course, but she was tight, and she had said it had been awhile.

  Looking down at her, Kai brushed her hair away from her face. Her eyes were closed.

  “I’m sorry,” he said as he started to nibble at her bottom lip again. Damn, he loved her mouth.

  She said nothing but slipped her hands up over his shoulders to his head. She pulled him down for a hot, carnal, devastating kiss.

  “No reason to be sorry,” she whispered the words against his mouth.

  He lifted himself off her, taking her generous hips into his hands as he started moving. God, each time he slipped into her core, tiny muscles grasped, pulling him tight, pushing him closer to his orgasm. But he wanted to see her come again. He wanted to watch as she lost herself in pleasure.

  It didn’t take him long to build her back up. Soon she bowed beneath him, her breasts thrusting heavenward. He couldn’t resist. He dipped his head, taking a nipple into his mouth as he felt his orgasm move over him. With one last hard thrust, he came, his orgasm seemingly lasting forever. He collapsed moments later.

  “I might be dead,” she said, her voice filled with lazy satisfaction.

  “You and me both, sistah,” he said as he raised his head. Her face was flushed from their lovemaking and the scent of it lay heavy in the air. He leaned up and kissed her nose.

  “Thank you.”

  “For what?” she asked.

  “For letting me be the first one.”

  She smiled. “Thank you for wanting me.”

  “A man would have to be dead not to.”

  He gave her another quick kiss on her nose as he moved away and got rid of the condom. He slipped back in bed and pulled her against him.

  “Rest,” he said, giving her another kiss on the top of her head. Kai couldn’t seem to quit kissing her. It was then, with Jocelyn snuggled up beside him, that he realized that he might just be in over his head.

  And for the life of him, he didn’t give a damn.

  Jocelyn woke up in slow degrees. She could still feel sun on her face, so she knew not a lot of time had gone by. She closed her eyes and smiled. Her body felt well used, and she couldn’t help but feel smug that she had finally stepped over the invisible line. Dr. Sawyer would be so proud.

  She felt Kai run a well-callused finger down her arm. “I thought you might get a little more rest,” he said, his voice deep, resonant, downright sexy.

  She opened her eyes and turned to face him. Damn, he was gorgeous. She’d had a lot of men in her time, but none of them had affected her the way that Kai had. And sadly, she barely knew him. Was that the reason he intrigued her so much?

  “Why do you think I need sleep?”

  His mouth turned up at one corner. “Because I know you’ve been up since O dark thirty. And you have to get up early again tomorrow.”

  “It’s early. And remember, I don’t have to work tomorrow. I’ve got a lot of time for sleep.”

  His smile turned carnal. “Yeah, but I wasn’t planning on letting you sleep much tonight.”

  A bolt of heat lanced through her. “Yeah?” She slipped her arm over his shoulder. “And you thought I would let you spend the night?”

  He leaned closer and took her bottom lip between his teeth. “I thought I might be able to convince you. I was also hoping for some dinner.”

  The look he gave her was equal parts innocent and naughty. She felt her heart shiver but she pushed it aside. Or pretended to.

  He skimmed his hand over her hip, then up to her breast. She bit her lip to try and keep from moaning. He kissed her chin.

  “Why do you do that?”

  She opened her eyes. “What?”

  “You try and keep from showing any pleasure. Why?”

  She shrugged. It had never been a problem before, but now, it felt somehow…wrong. She knew the psychological reasons. Her doctor had warned her about them. But she was too embarrassed to admit it. Anger flashed in the depths of his eyes, but it disappeared so quickly she thought she might have been mistaken.

  “Well, I think I might have to do my best to get you to make some noise.” The mischievous tone sank beneath her skin. There was enough heat in it to have her head spinning.

  She slipped up on top of him. She wanted to give in to him. It had been about a year since she had even thought of taking a man to bed, and Kai had made it wonderful for her again. Sitting up on him, she felt his cock pulse beneath her.

  “How about a little fun, then dinner?”

  He smiled and then groaned when she rolled her hips. “If this is an example of your ability to recover, I’m definitely going to need some food soon.”

  She laughed. “You’re so easy.”

  He slipped his hand between her breasts to her neck and pulled her down to him. “With a woman as beautiful as you, it is pretty hard not to be easy.”

  He kissed her then, slipping his tongue between her lips. Heat that had been simmering blazed. If she thought about it, she would probably be worrying. A man had never gotten her this crazy so fast. But there was something so freeing about being with Kai.

  By the time she pulled away, she was already aching, her pussy wet, needy. She reached over to the side table and grabbed a condom from the stack he’d brought. She sat there, looked at the four or five condoms.

  “I don’t know if I should be impressed or worried.”

  His hands were on her hips and she felt his cock twitch again.

  She scooted down as she ripped the package. She decided to be mean and take her own sweet time rolling the condom down his impressive length.

  By the time she had, his fingers were digging into the sheets.

  “I am going to pay you back for that.”

  She said nothing as she moved back up him, leaning over him, allowing her breasts to rub against his chest. There was something about him that made her feel powerful, in control. She rose to her knees and then slowly eased down on his cock. Inch by inch, she sank down, enjoying the way he filled her. Once she finally had all of him in her, she started to move. Up and down, slowly at first, just enjoying the way he groaned her name as she flexed her hips each time she slid down.

  Soon though, she felt her orgasm approaching, the telltale sign of a rush of heat. Kai leaned up to take a nipple in his mouth and tugged it between his teeth. She shivered and increased her movements, frustration starting to build. She needed to come, right now. As Kai teased her breasts, he slipped a hand down to her clit and took it between his fingers and squeezed. It sent her hurdling over the edge into the hot abyss of her orgasm. He rolled them over, switching their positions and pulled himself up to his knees as he started to thrust into her. Before she was recovered from her first orgasm, he sent her into another one.

  When she opened her eyes, she found him watching her with an intensity that scared her. But for some odd reason, she couldn’t seem to look away. Even as her body was recovering from her second release, she felt him building her up again. Fear and arousal intertwined in her chest. She wanted to stop it. He must have sensed it, because he leaned down and kissed her.

  “Don’t. Don’t hide. Not from me, not from this.”

  She wanted to. She didn’t like the loss of control. But as he slammed into her hard one last time, she felt herself dissolve into pleasure. This orgasm was more powerful than the first two and she screamed his name. She closed her eyes as he groaned her name. A moment later he rolled them over, and she snuggled against him.

  His skimmed his hand down her spine and said nothing as they watched the last rays of sunlight slip away.

  Chapter Ten

  “This is possibly the best tasting peanut butter sandwich I have ever eaten,” Jocelyn said before taking another big bite.

  Kai smiled, enjoying her happiness. They had fallen asleep after the last bout of love making and woken up ravenous. It had taken a lot for him to drag his ass out
to the kitchen. But once there, he knew it had been worth it.

  “I might have to have another one,” he said.

  Her eyes widened. “You’ve already had two.”

  “I have to keep up my stamina. You’ll wear me out otherwise.”

  She laughed. Just that made his heart jerk. He couldn’t keep himself from falling deeper beneath her spell. Damn, she was something. He had known a lot of women, been with more women than he could probably count. But this one, she did something to him. Just seeing her smile, hearing her happiness, made the world brighter.

  “Kai, is something wrong?”

  He shook his head, trying to gather his thoughts. He couldn’t be in love with her. Nothing was settled, she was still trying to get her life back in order. And he knew for a fact that she wasn’t ready for it any more than he was.

  “Kai?”

  The worry in her voice pulled him from his thoughts. He noticed she was frowning at him so he covered up his feelings and smiled.

  “Nothing. Just a little more tired than I thought I was.”

  She nodded but didn’t look like she believed him. She rose from the table, and he snagged his arm around her waist and pulled her onto his lap.

  She snuggled close to him and then smiled up at him. “Is there something you needed?”

  Your love.

  There was another small jolt of pain to his heart. He couldn’t ask for that when he knew he wasn’t able to promise he could give it in return. “Yeah. Another sandwich.”

  She giggled as she rose and smacked his hand. “I should tell May that you are trying to order me around to get you food.”

  But she went about making him another sandwich.

  “What do you think your brother is going to do when he finds out?”

  She shrugged. “Not really any of his business.”

  She set the sandwich on the plate in front of him and then sat back down to drink the rest of her milk.